happy besday to me.... :)

JULY 25, 2010

i was born 23 years ago on this day at 8.03am on saturday..well today is july 31, 2010..so heppy belated birthday to me..i forget to post this early..hahahah

nway, life is not gonna be happily ever after..so maybe today besday, a lot of unexpecting thigs happens to me.somehow, listening to the lukisan alam by hijjaz ehile typing this, really calm me.

maybe because i always get pampered by ppl around me who loved me so i get abot spoiled up, which is sumthing that i dun put my blame to anyone..just me.maybe because of that character of mine, ppl who know it is my besday keep asking me, where to celebration? what present i get? how many ppl already wish me? do i get birthday card? or any surpring momment?

hahhaha.i really dont noe how to answer those questions.because nothing is happen this year.today is just the same as the rest of 2010 days i guess.that dont really get me down act, because i already thought the consequence that might happen that day..so just chill..all i want is the remmbrance and the call from my family and of course my beloved boyfriend..but somehow, it doesnt happen too..well that really upset me that day.but still, i appresciate the wishes..i really do..hurm..

maybe this 2010 birthday, god just want me to be more mature in handling my own feelings in unordinary circumstance. i may not manage it well, but yeah i made myself live with it..im not gonna die just because i dun feel speacial on july 25.am i?