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Saturday, July 31, 2010

lukisan alam

Hidup tidak selalunya indah
Langit tak selalu cerah
Suram malam tak berbintang
Itulah lukisan alam
(Begitu aturan Tuhan)

Jadilah rumput nan lemah lembut
Tak luruh dipukul ribut
Bagai karang di dasar lautan
Tak terusik dilanda badai

Dalam suka hitunglah kesyukuranmu
Dalam senang awasi kealfaanmu
Setitis derita melanda
Segunung kurniaanNya

Usah mengharapkan ke segalanya
Dalam perjuangan penuh pengorbanan
Usah dendam berpanjangan
Maafkan kesalahan insan
(Begitu ajaran Tuhan)

Hasbiallah, Hasbunallah
HasbiRabbi jalallahu Ya Allah

Dalam diam taburkanlah baktimu
Dalam tenang buangkanlah amarahmu
Suburkanlah sifat sabar
(Di) dalam jiwamu itu

solat istikhoroh

Cara Solat istikhoroh?

Solat Istikhoroh dilakukan seperti solat sunnah yang lain iaitu sebanyak dua rakaat, sama ada siang atau malam hari (selama sedang memerlukan petunjuk), dalam setiap rakaatnya membaca al-Fatihah dan surah apa saja yang sudah dihafal, lalu mengangkat tangan sambil berdoa dengan doa istikhoroh yang diajarkan oleh Nabi seperti yang telah disebutkan/dibentangkan di atas (dalam hadis Bukhori dari jalan Jabir Bin Abdulloh). (Asal perkataan ini oleh Ibnu Baz dalam Majmu’ Fatawa wa Maqolat Mutanawwi’ah, 11/421)

Adakah Dalam Solat Istikhoroh Ada Bacaan Khusus/Tertentu?

Imam Nawawi mengatakan: “Disunnahkan pada raka’at pertama setelah al-Fatihah membaca surat al-Kafirun dan raka’at ke dua setelah al-Fatihah membaca surat al-Ikhlash” (al-Majmu’ Syarh al-Muhadzdzab 2/377), hal ini didasari oleh maksud orang yang beristikhoroh supaya mengikhlaskan niatnya hanya kepada Allah, sehingga yang patut dibaca adalah dua surat tersebut.

Sedangkan al-Hafiz al-’Iraqi mengatakan (Perkataan ini dinukil dari Tuhfatul Ahwadzi 2/484): “Aku tidak menjumpai satu hadis pun tentang penentuan bacaan surah-surah khusus dalam solat Istikhoroh.”

Dan keterangan di atas jelaslah bahwasanya pendapat yang lebih kuat adalah tidak adanya ketentuan surah-surah yang dibaca ketika solat Istikhoroh, lantaran tidak ada keterangan dari Rasulullah akan hal itu, dan mereka yang mensunnahkan surah-surah tertentu tidak mendatangkan dalil al-Qur’an dan Sunnah, sehingga kita katakan disunnahkan setelah membaca al-Fatihah di masing-masing raka’at untuk membaca surah apa saja dari al-Qur’an yang telah dihafal.

Berkata Ibnu Bazz (Majmu’ Fatawa wa Maqolat Mutanawzvi’ah 11/421): “Hendaknya (orang yang solat Istikhoroh) membaca al-Fatihah di setiap raka’at dan membaca surah apa saja yang mudah.”

Bilakah Doa Istikhoroh Dibacakan?

Doa Istikhoroh boleh dibaca samaada sebelum salam atau selepas salam selepas solat dua roka’at. (Sebagaimana fatwa Syaikhul Islam Ibnu Taimiyah dalam Majmu’ Fatawanya 12/105)

a. Sebelum salam

Adapun dibolehkan membaca do’a istikhoroh sebelum salam ini berdasarkan:

1. Kebanyakan doa Nabi dalam sholat dilakukan sebelum salam (setelah tasyahud akhir), seperti yang dijelaskan oleh Abu Hurairoh, beliau berkata: “Nabi bersabda: Apabila kalian selesai dari tasyahud yang terakhir, hendaklah berdo’a meminta perlindungan kepada Allah dari empat perkara, iaitu mengucapkan (maksudnya);

Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari azab neraka Jahannam, dan azab kubur, dari fitnah kehidupan dan kematian, dan dari fitnah al-Masih ad-Dajjal. (Hadis Riwayat Bukhari 1377, dan Muslim 588)

2. Demikian juga Rasulullah mengajari Abu Bakar tatkala beliau minta diajarkan do’a yang boleh dibaca dalam solatnya, lalu Nabi memerintahkan beliau untuk membaca (maksudnya);

Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku telah menzalimi diriku dengan kezaliman yang banyak, tidak ada yang mengampuni dosa-dosa kecuali Engkau, maka ampunilah aku dengan ampunan dari-Mu, dan rahmatilah aku, sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang. (Hadis Riwayat Bukhari 834 dan Muslim 3/7/27)

3. Dalam Hadis Jabir bin Abdullah, Rasulullah tidak menentukan tempat dibacanya doa istikharah apakah harus dibaca sebelum salam atau setelah salam.

b. Sesudah salam

Sedangkan dibolehkan doa Istikhoroh dibaca sesudah salam berdasarkan zahir hadis yang menunjukkan doa tersebut dibaca sesudah salam, sebagaimana Nabi bersabda (yang ertinya): “Apabila di antara kalian berkeinginan/bermaksud terhadap suatu perkara, hendaklah solat sunnah dua rakaat bukan termasuk wajib, kemudian berdo’a...”

Berkata Ibnu Baz: “Sholat Istikhoroh hukumnya sunnah, dan do’a istikhoroh tempatnya setelah salam sebagaimana (zahir) hadis yang telah datang dari Rasulullah” (Majmu’ Fatawa wa Maqolat Mutanawwi’ah 11/421422). (Demikian juga difatwakan oleh Lajnah Da’imah dalam Fatwa no. 10666)

Apa Yang Dilakukan Setelah Solat Istikhoroh Dan Bermusyawarah?

Imam Nawawi r.h. berkata (Perkataan Imam Nawawi (dinukil secara bebas) ini dinukil oleh Imam Syaukani dalam Nailul Author 2/298): “Setelah seseorang melakukan solat Istikhoroh, sebaiknya dia menjalani apa yang dia rasakan lapang dadanya terhadap perkara tersebut baik meneruskan maksudnya atau meninggalkannya.”

Kemudian beliau melanjutkan perkataannya:

“Bagi orang yang hendak beristikhoroh hendaklah ia menghilangkan kecondongan hatinya terhadap suatu perkara sebelum melakukan solat dan doa Istikhoroh, dan tidak selayaknya bersandar kepada adanya kecondongan hati sebelum istikhoroh, kerana apabila ada kecondongan hati sebelum istikhoroh, lalu dia melakukan istikhoroh, bererti dia tidak beristikhoroh, kerana istikhoroh dilakukan ketika bimbang dan meminta dipilihkan yang terbaik dari Allah untuknya.”

Boleh Mengulang Solat Istikhoroh Dalam Satu Perkara

Ibnu Utsaimin berkata (Dinukil secara bebas dari Syarh Riyadhus Sholihin oleh Ibnu Utsaimin 2/515): “Setelah melakukan solat dan do’a istikhoroh, apabila merasa lapang dadanya terhadap suatu perkara baik meneruskan atau meninggalkan, maka inilah yang diharapkan, tetapi apabila tetap bimbang dan tidak merasa lapang dadanya, maka dia boleh mengulangi solat dan doa Istikhorohnya ke dua kali, ke tiga kalinya, dan seterusnya, hal ini lantaran orang yang beristikhoroh adalah orang yang meminta petunjuk kepada Allah akan kebaikan yang akan dia lakukan sehingga apabila tidak jelas baginya kebaikannya atau tetap ragu maka dia boleh beristikhoroh berulang kali.”

Adakah Tanda-Tanda Dikabulkannya Permintaan?

Sebahagian orang berkata: “Setelah melakukan solat dan doa Istikhoroh, maka akan datang petunjuk dalam mimpinya, maka diambil pilihan sebagaimana mimpinya,” oleh kerana itu ada sebagian orang berwudhu’, lalu melakukan solat dan doa istikhoroh, kemudian terus tidur (mengharap petunjuk datang melalui mimpi), bahkan sebahagian mereka menyengaja memakai pakaian berwarna putih (supaya bermimpi baik), semua ini hanyalah prasangka manusia (yang tidak ada dasarnya). (Lihat Bahjah an-Nadzirin Syarh Riyadhus Sholihin oleh Syaikh Salim bin led al-Hilali 2/44)

Kesimpulan

1. Rasa bimbang, ragu, dan ketidak-tahuan baik dan buruknya suatu perkara adalah hal yang wajar, kerana semua itu termasuk tabiat dan keterbatasan manusia.

2. Solat Istikhoroh adalab solat yang dilakukan untuk minta petunjuk kepada Allah kebaikan perkara yang sedang dihadapi.

3. Para ulama bersepakat (ijma’) bahawa solat Istikhoroh hukumnya sunnah.

4. Solat Istikhoroh disunnahkan bagi segenap perkara baik besar atau kecil, selama seseorang bimbang atau ragu ataupun tidak mengetahui maslahatnya di masa akan datang/terkemudian.

5. Apabila sudah terdapat kecondongan hati atau mengetahui tentang baiknya perkara (dari awal lagi), maka tidak disunnahkan beristikhoroh, ini kerana solat Istikhoroh itu dilakukan adalah bagi tujuan meminta petunjuk, dan Allah memerintahkan hambanya yang telah melaksanakannya supya bertawakal kepada Allah.

6. Istikhoroh disunnahkan dalam perkara-perkara yang asalnya mubah, adapun perkara wajib dan sunnah, maka tidak disunnahkan istikhoroh, ini kerana kebaikannya sudah jelas adanya, sebagaimana perkara haram dan makruh tidak disunnahkan istikhoroh kerana keburukannya sudah jelas adanya.

7. Tidak terdapat dalil yang sah tentang pengkhususan bacaan surah-surah al-Qur’an dalam solat Istikhoroh.

8. Doa Istikhoroh boleh dibaca dalam solat (sebelum salam) atau di luar solat (sesudah salam)

9. Dibolehkan mengulangi solat Istikhoroh dalam satu perkara apabila diperlukan.

10. Ketenangan hati dan kelapangan dada kepada suatu perkara setelah melakukan solat istikhoroh adalah tanda petunjuk dari Allah, dan tidak terdapat dalil yang sah tentang keharusan melihat mimpi setelah beristikhoroh.

Demikianlah yang dapat dibentangkan dari beberapa penjelasan/keterangan para ulama tentang solat Istikhoroh, mudah-mudahan kita mendapat petunjuk dari Allah sehingga kita dapat melangkah sesuai dengan apa yang digariskan oleh Allah dan Rasul-Nya dan mendapatkan yang terbaik dan sisi-Nya dengan jalan taat dan istiqomah di atas landasan-Nya, amiin.
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rollercoaster

mengimbau kenangan lalu, aku teringat tatkala ayah dan mak berkeras tidak mengizinkan kami adik beradik menaiki rollercoaster.bahaya katanya.so kami adik beradik just melihat dar bawah keseronokkan orang laen menikmati keseronokkan meluncur laju di udara.huhu.jeles yang tak terkira.mungkin kerana suatu ketika dulu terdapat kes kematian yang melibatkan that stuff so tu yang mama n ayah gerun.tp, hati kecil ini tetap menyimpan suatu impian untuk turut merasai apa yang akuinginkan.so when im 17, dengan segala impian yang memuncak, aku berjaya melaksanakan impian rollercoasterku di cosmo world berjaya times square..masa tu br rm25.sekarang dah rm 32.sangat2 seronok dan takot.semuanya bercampur aduk.terasa adrenalinku mengalir pantas dr biasa.hahahhaha..kenapa la mak ayah suka sangat soh kitorang naek gondola yang lembab n slow tu.membosankan..huh

tp lau nk dipikir balik, hidup kita ni pon umpama rollercoaster.ader masa tinggi ada masa rendah ada masa laju ada masa perlahan.tak semestinya kita akan suka apa yang terjadi dlm hidup kita.bermacam2 hal yang terjadi kerana itulah kehidupan.agaknya sebab tu jugak lah kot, gondola menjadi pilihan mereka untuk kami,sentiasa mengambil langkah paling selamat supaya tiada yang akan terluka.tapi aku yang memilih jalan hidup yang berliku maka aku yang akan meneruskan apa yang telah aku pilih.mungkin aku akan terasa pedih, tp perjalanan masih jauh.nak tak nak aku kena teruskan jua.tiada apa yang tinggal di belakang.cuma kenangan yang tiada pengertian. yang pasti pelbagai lagi yang akan menanti di hadapan.yikes!! ..lin...berusaha!!

happy besday to me.... :)

JULY 25, 2010

i was born 23 years ago on this day at 8.03am on saturday..well today is july 31, 2010..so heppy belated birthday to me..i forget to post this early..hahahah

nway, life is not gonna be happily ever after..so maybe today besday, a lot of unexpecting thigs happens to me.somehow, listening to the lukisan alam by hijjaz ehile typing this, really calm me.

maybe because i always get pampered by ppl around me who loved me so i get abot spoiled up, which is sumthing that i dun put my blame to anyone..just me.maybe because of that character of mine, ppl who know it is my besday keep asking me, where to celebration? what present i get? how many ppl already wish me? do i get birthday card? or any surpring momment?

hahhaha.i really dont noe how to answer those questions.because nothing is happen this year.today is just the same as the rest of 2010 days i guess.that dont really get me down act, because i already thought the consequence that might happen that day..so just chill..all i want is the remmbrance and the call from my family and of course my beloved boyfriend..but somehow, it doesnt happen too..well that really upset me that day.but still, i appresciate the wishes..i really do..hurm..

maybe this 2010 birthday, god just want me to be more mature in handling my own feelings in unordinary circumstance. i may not manage it well, but yeah i made myself live with it..im not gonna die just because i dun feel speacial on july 25.am i?

Kursus MEGA PBC ( Perkongsian Belanjawan Cemerlang) HPA


HPA- Herba Penawar Al-Wahida..can also be think as Hadiah Pemberiaan Allah SWT :)

A few days ago, on July24 and July 25, me and my mum were attending the MEGA PBC seminar..Well actually, it wasn’t my intention to do so but seeing her so eager telling me about the programme make me feel that, im not gonna die by just attending it. Of course at first i thought i was register by using my name, but luckily im attending for my dad behalf..hahha..im and agent too you (my mum did this ok) but somehow she needs to make a progress for her first downline i guess so i think that’s me helping her with this stuff.FYI, my mum is attending for his brother, which is my uncle lol.my mum already went to this kind a seminar before..so i guess it is for helping the progress for her downline. So i guess, maybe i have to go again..huahuahuahua..





JULY 24 2010

i haven’t been sleeping well last nite. Sumthing or sumone made me.huh!..i guess it was 2 am in the morning that i forced myself to forget about the world problem and try to have a gudnite sleep. My mum wake me up at 6.15am.if it is my lil sis or lil bro, i swear i will scream to them.oush, lacking of sleep, that really stimulate my anger.however i manage to make myself go to the bathroom and prepare myself before my mum’s friend, aunt basyarah come to pick us.

we arrived at KL International hotel at 8.30am.SHITS! all the parking is full.Something happens that morning at the parking lot, well..maybe i shouldn’t write it here because that just gonna make my high blood pressure increasing. stupid old man, if it wasn’t my mum told me to leave, i dunt even care if we get into a fight.what a bad luck..sharing the lift with dat old man again..urgh...no wonder laa! He attending the seminar too..with his family.choi!



overall, the seminar is brilliant, maybe because the founder of the body give the talks but thnks to my late night sleep, i wasn’t give my full attention.zzzzzz....
but hey!!! Lunch time..tea time..dinner time..super time..ahahaha..its totally awesome.this hotel’s food is superb...like it so much. too many things to eat..aiyoo..i may get 10 kg brought home by tomorrow.



what is more fun than seeing my mum and her frens are feeling dizzy and sleepy during the late evening and night session..hahhahah..tu lah gelak aku pagi tadi..tgk sekarang mata saper yang segar..kehkeh..(thanks to my holidays after school im turning into an owl....tak tido mlm..tido siang..huhu).the last session ended at midnight..cant wait to go to sleep.i swear im damn tired even it is just listening to the talk.maybe my brain is working i guess.

JULY 25 2010

i wake up late!!! We are suppose to go to qiyamullai at 4.45 am..but i woke up at 5.15am in the morning.the two of them are headed to surau to wait for azan subuh and kuliah subuh..oo also latihan pernafasan by en hafizan(he is so adorable), but nah..i think im gonna past..solat kat bilik sajer t..ni bukan sekolah dorang nk amek attendance.

but.....i woke up late again!!!!!!!!! Waaaaaaaaa...this time at 7.45 am.the seminar should be started at 8.30am and we don’t even had breakfast yet...so kelam kabut sangat nk get prepared..and we had that seminar mcm biasa sampi lah ke petang..check out pukul 2pm.(since when eyh?)..takpe lah...then aunt basyarah drive us home and we arrived at 6.30pm..owhh..i missed my bed so much..

lesson learn : too many things to rite here.That HPA course really make me think for awhile..hurm..tp i dun really noe what act should i take about it.i just hope i can change sumthing in me after attending the course.

Thursday, July 15, 2010

saya sayang kamoo (part 3)

I’m pretty sure he is mad at me just now (Just my guessing due to my previous message). But, how could him not replied anything to me and make me waited.

“If he hate so much when I got text message from others or when i text messaging others, why couldn’t he sacrifice his tiny time to text me ? At least to tell me that he is busy or doing something or he mad at me or need me to wait till midnight to replied me or anything. At least I’m not left wondering to death like this.

If he hates to wait for my message, why must he make me wait?”

I almost send him another sarcasm message when suddenly I realize that the message won’t make the situation better. In fact, the questions linger in my mind just might lead to another complicated issue.

So please miss lin, take it slow. Everything happens for reasons. U needs to breathe and relax or you will have another painful night with your migraine just like yesterday. Remember?

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Think straight. I need some distraction. Alright, let just switch on the radio~

10 to 15 minute after that, he message me.

“Baby, you know that I miss you.

I wanna get with you tonight but I cannot baby girl and that’s the issue.

Girl you know I miss you, I just wanna kiss you but i cant right now.

So baby kiss me through the phone.

See you when I get home.

-this song reminds us the early stage of our relationship.

Sorry if i hurt u so much this time.”

The sweetest message I have not received for a long time and guess what, I cried so hard.

All the pain, all the pressure, all the night I spend wondering, it’s all disappeared just like that.



I’m speechless and I can’t describe what I felt at that time. I overjoyed.

He still remembers things that we used to have before.

It’s like a cure to my wound and suddenly, I don’t get mad at all.



The feeling is change.



I miss you.

I’m still in love with you.

I’m sorry for making so many mistakes.

I’m still the girl who needs you.

I’m still the girl you used to know before.

I wish that the happiness will be ours forever.

**AMIN**







saya sayang kamoo (part 2)

As usual, I don’t want to change the air. I’m not going to ruin it this time. So each time I want to text massaging him, I keep reminding myself.

“No lin! This wasn’t the good time. You love the conversation you had just now right? You want it to be this way today right? So put the damn phone please or you’re going to regret it.”

I must wait for him to messaging me. It must be too pressure with him to pleased his family and me at the same time. He doesn’t like me to interfere much when he is busy driving or spending time with his family. The more I interfere, the more headaches he got, the more issue I need to face, the more ignorance I get. So, let just take turn I guess.



The other thing that he thought me is he doesn’t like to be pushing around.

Not long after that, he text message me. I think I’m not supposed to type the content of the message here. So maybe I can just make the conclusion about what is it about.

I kind of dislike the message he send to me.

JEALOUS.ENVY.MISUNDERSTANDING.HATRED.

That’s all I can think at the moment.

I decided not to reply the message. With all the negative feeling I had inside, it’s only gonna make the condition worst. After half an hour, I replied. I don’t want to take too much time as it going to end up worst also. He hates me late replied his message unless with some reasonable reason.

TIME IS MONEY.MONEY IS TIME

lalallalallala~

But I guess, even the best words I choose to hide my real feelings to make the message a bit humour and joke, I don’t think he take it that way cause he just replied 3 words. I send a smiley and he didn’t reply.

I wait, I wait and wait. Nothing.

So I opened back the send massage folder. I read back my message for him. Maybe he offended with what I’m saying. Guess I failed again to maintain this harmony situation. If only I can manage to keep my manners.huh~ let it be what it be. I’m sorry.

saya sayang kamoo (part 1)

I don’t remember when the last time I got phone call by him

I don’t remember when the last time his name appeared in my call received list.

I don’t remember the feeling of getting this nervous feeling when he called.

I don’t remember when is the last time we having phone call conversation without any fight.

I don’t remember it at all.

I don’t think that he ever know or notice about this.

Everything is change when I’m with him.

I’m no longer a mobile phone addict. I can just leave my phone nowadays.

I even put in on ringing tone mode.

(It is something that I will never do before)

With him, I was thought to respect time and money.

But late in this evening today, while I’m taking in all the dry laundry at the downstairs balcony, I was surprised.

My one and only sister run towards me with my mobile phone, saying that I got a phone call. There’s nothing on my mind. Maybe mom or dad wants to remind me about the dry laundry or dinner or anything.

My heart beating fast and my mind get curious.

It’s him!!!

My brain works ten times harder than usual in those 2 seconds.

“What did I do wrong this time?”

“Is he okay? Is he involved in any accident?”

“Is there any important thing or news he wants to tell me?”

“Are we going to have another issue?’’

(Told you, everything should be fact stuff or important stuff)

However, of course, I’m still answering the phone call.

I try to speak as soft as possible and avoiding something that might cross the line.

I really don’t want to hurt him, me or anybody again this time.

It surprised me when I look at the call timer.

More than 5 minutes and the aura are still in the normal mode.

I got this some weird feeling, where the aura feels so nice and warmth.



I’m nervous.

I’m happy.

I’m curious.

And I feel everything.

I kind of like this feeling actually.

Just like before we end up in some complicated situation.



The phone call conversation end nicely.

Even without those smoochies moochies kisses like in our early stage of relationship.

“I don’t mind~

I think we are too old for that habit.

(Even I miss it sometimes .... hahahhahaha)”

I’m so speechless over the situation. It’s like that I had been giving second chance to feel what I felt before. Is it a sign of something? I wonder.