jangan nakal

Alif OIAM - Jangan Nakal

Semua tahu kamu cantik
Semua tahu kau menarik
Kau bidadari terhebat
Membuat cintaku makin kuat

Kadangkala ku cemburu buta
Saat ramai mata terpesona
Terlebih saat ku mahu pergi
Di saat itu kau ada di sini

Chorus
Please please please
Kamu jangan nakal
Ku pergi sebentar
Bukan untuk curang
Please please please
Kamu jangan nakal
Nanti aku datang
Bawa yang kau pesan

Diriku untukmu

Semua tahu kau milikku
Semua tahu ku cintamu
Ada pun yang memandangku
Betapa beruntungnya aku

Kadangkala ku cemburu buta
Saat ramai mata terpesona
Terlebih saat ku mahu pergi
Di saat itu kau ada di sini

Ulang Chorus

Bukan aku terlalu
Mengawal sikapmu
Ku hanya terlalu
Terlalu sayangi kamu
Ampunkan aku terlebih-lebih
Jagakan kamu
Ku cintamu
Kau cintaku

Ulang Chorus 3X

Diriku untukmu
Diriku untukmu

JANGAN LUPA JADI ISTERI SETELAH BERGELAR IBU

2 3 bulan ni aku asyik mendengar ibu dan ayah ku mengutarakan mengenai majlis pertunangan sekaligus pernikahan yang akan diadakan bg anak bujangnyer yang pertama.Banyak sungguh perkara yang perlu diambil kira.Rupa rupanya alam perkahwinan tak lah semudah yang disangkakan.Sebelum, semasa dan selepas. Dalam pada mencari erti ramadahan di dlm forum halaqah, aku ternampak isu lain yang dikupas oleh ahli lain, JANGAN LUPA JADI ISTERI SETELAH BERGELAR IBU OLEH DATUK DR HAJI MOHD FADZILAH KAMSAH.Aku termenung sejenak.Selama ini, rasa nyer acapkali ku berangan ,tidak sabar kiranye untuk bersama dengan yang tersayang.ditemani bakal anak2 yang ku kire akan melengkapkan lagi hidup ku.selepasa habis mmbaca artikel ini, aku tefikir mampu ke aku menunaikan tanggungjawab ku itu.sedangkan tanggungjawab ku yang sekarang sebagai anak dan pelajar pon belum mampu ku kendong dengan sebaik2 mungkin.apatah lagi jika ditambah dengan tanggungjawab keluarga ku sendiri.
____________________________________________________________________
JANGAN LUPA JADI ISTERI SETELAH BERGELAR IBU
DATUK DR HAJI MOHD FADZILAH KAMSAH.

Menurut beliau kebanyakkan lelaki yang berumahtangga mahukan seorang
isteri. Suami tidak peduli samada isterinya melahirkan seorang anak atau
10 orang anak, yang penting baginya dia masih memerlukan isteri.
Tetapi,sambungnya, ramai isteri selepas mempunyai tiga atau empat orang
anak menjadi ibu dan kurang menjadi isteri.

Peringkat awal ...

mungkin suami boleh bertahan, menyenduk nasi sendiri,
ambil nasi sendiri, ambil air sendiri sebab isteri sibuk melayan
anak-anak tetapi lama-kelamaan suami menjadi bosan. Penat di pejabat dan
di rumah pula tidak mendapat layanan isteri. Beliau menekankan, ramai
suami tidak tahan apabila isterinya menjadi ibu sehingga suami merasa
terpinggir. Di luar banyak terdapat gejala-gejala yang mengambil alih
tugas isterinya di rumah untuk melayan makan-minumnya.

Ada wanita lain dengan ramah akan bertanya, "Encik nak minum, saya
siapkan kopi, encik nak makan nanti saya hidangkan nasi....". Ini akan
membuatkan suami merasa wanita itu melayannya dengan baik sedangkan di
rumah dia hanya mendengar kata-kata, "You buat sendirilah, I sibuk nak
layan budak-budak ni. I penatlah..."
Tu baru bab lahiriah yang dipinta.. kalau alasan tu juga dibagi waktu
berkehendakan hubungan badan.. hmmmm tak tau la cek nak kata.. takut
nanti ada isteri2 yang makan ati akhirnyer bila suami menyatakan
keinginan utk beristeri satu lagi..... Senantiasalah beringat bahawa
seorang suami yang menyimpan perasaan marah atau tak puashati terhadap
tolakan kita... sepanjang malam kita akan dilaknati oleh malaikat...
sehinggalah suami kita memaafkannya.. Kerna itu.. seboleh2nya..jangan
biarkan si suami tertidur sendirian kerna menantikan kehadiran kita
menemaninya .. kalau boleh, hentikan dulu kerja2 yang dilakukan.. temani
suami buat seketika utk memenuhi keperluan dirinya.. tak semua semua
inginkan seks semata2.. ada yang hanya mau lena dipelukan anda atau
sebaliknyer...

Suami yang longgar pengetahuan agamanya dan tidak tahu tanggungjawab
akan mudah berlaku curang walaupun sepatutnya dia membantu dan faham
keadaan isteri. Pesan beliau, "Isteri jangan lupa menjadi isteri".
Sambut suami balik dari pejabat, ambil begnya, layan sekejap, tuangkan
air dan berikan sentuhan saying walaupun hanya dua atau tiga minit walau
sibuk bagaimana sekalipun. Jangan disebabkan dua atau tiga minit ini,
akhirnya suami lebih senang dilayan oleh wanita lain.
Jangan sesekali ambil remeh perkara begini..biasernyer bagi lelaki yang
sudah berumahtangga, satu cara utk dier lepaskan bebanan kepala setelah
seharian bekerja.. adalah dengan menerima layanan baik dari
isteri..sekalipun hanya dengan senyuman isteri dimuka pintu... tatkala
itu..dihatinya pasti raser sungguh gembira kerana ada yang menanti dan
meringankan bebanan emosi nya..

Ramai wanita, menurut beliau, selepas mendapat dua atau tiga orang anak
akan mulai terlalu yakin diri dan bongkak. Mereka merasakan sudah lama
berkawin dan tidak perlu menjaga tubuh badan atau bahasa tuturan. Mereka
lupa kebanyakkan lelaki mudah tertarik pada yang cantik dan
lemah-lembut. Mereka juga selalunya atau kebanyakkannyer berasa suami
harus faham keadaan mereka yang senantiasa diperlukan oleh anak2..ini
silap.. sekalipun berapa anak yang diperolehi...suami tetap merupakan
"Anak Sulung"... walau sayang banyak mana pada anak pun.. suami harus
senantiasa didahulukan....

Lelaki berumur atau tua tetapi kalau melihat wanita muda mereka boleh
terlupa yang diri sudah bergelar suami. Walaupun sudah tua tetapi jiwa
muda keluar kembali kecuali di tabir oleh keimanan yang tebal. Yang ada
"pendinding" akan sengaja membahasakan diri tua dengan perempuan
dibahasakan dirinya 'Pak cik' adalah dengan sengaja di lakukan demikian
untuk memadam segala keinginan.

Seperti yang sering beliau nyatakan, orang lelaki mudah perasan bilamana
keadaan dirinya tak tenteram...dan dikala ini apabila ada wanita muda
menunjukkan minat, berbuat baik, lelaki yang berumur akan mudah perasan.
Malah tambahnya lagi, ada wanita lain yang menghargai dirinya lebih dari
isteri yang dirumah yang sentiasa mengomel dan memperkecilkan diri

overrated

I passed my reflection, it's someone else
I see your invention and not myself
I turned into your perfect
girl, a total stranger
Now I see and I don't want to

Be you and it's all just an act
And it's overrated
The truth is I'm wanting me back
Cause I can't take this
I gotta be who I am underneath
Who I gave up so you'll believe
Me and you and it's all just an act
it's overrated, so overrated

I let you control me, oh so you thought
don't think that you're
perfect, just don't misstep
I hid away the best of me, too
scared you'd notice
Now I do and I'm not going to

Be you and it's all just an act
And it's overrated
The truth is I'm wanting me back
Cause I can't take this
I gotta be who I am underneath
Who I gave up so you'll believe
Me and you and it's all just an act
it's overrated

Changing for a guy (overrated)
Living in a lie (it's overrated)
Always asking why (so overrated)

Oh, oh
The mirror is shattered, I'm finally free

Be you and it's all just an act (oh yea)
And it's overrated
The truth is I'm wanting me back
Cause I can't take this
I gotta be who I am underneath
Who I gave up so you'll believe
Me and you and it's all just an act

Oh, it's overrated, yea
Overrated, yea
it's overrated, yea
So overrated, yea
Overrated, oh, oh, yea

dear diary

before i decided to type this out,
there a so many things linger in my mind.. everything was a mess..
cheerfull moment..my love story...guilty feeling..jealousy and many else..
but the moment i lay my finger onto the keyboard,
everything just so hard to express..

why eyh??

GOD:
tonight i read 'yassin' (bcoz of malam jumaat maybe). thank god i feel way to peaceful that before.. i hope this life would be better each and every day and all i planned will come true.i guess my daddy feel hepy too.. itz been too long he havent heard me recite the quran.i feel hepy too.

Family:
i saw a drama on the hallmark channel today..not quite remember what was the title...but i am touched with the scene where a son have success in his life and make her momma proud..
i cried because, i never give my momma oppurtunities to be proud of me..
i wonder what would my momma felt if i could gave her that present, a present that cant be bought, just like in the scene..

then i turn on astro hitz, watching nickelback video clip, 'i'd come for you'..
and hell yess, im crying again..
the video itz about a daughter and father
that night, she follow her boyfriend out..
his father ask "who is that?" and the just go away..
stii the father set up dinner n wait for his daughter, yet she didnt showed up
at the car scene, the boyfriend try to take advantage on her..he text msg " 7 7 " to the daddy
as a symbol where she is, asking for help..
quickly, the father drive to that place n smash the boyfriend rite at his face
and save her daughter
OMG !! suddenly i remeber my dad..how he love me so much that he will trade his life for me

but why??
but why it is so hard for me to show that i love them..
but why i still keep this egois feeling inside of me

Boyfriend:
he's the one i loved..no one's above him...
believe me, im tired with all tha drama..
this time, i wanna make it real..
i wanna be with him..for a long2 time
but why he always acting like he dunt want it
im confused
damn confused
telling me that hewant to be my strength
but at the same time..he is the one who keep questioning me
i wonder what's on his mind
i hope that this will make me more stronger..stronger that ever
ey, u should hear kelly's song
" My Life Would Sucks Without You"
it really suits us
i miss you bie...wish i can see you more often...
i love you now n ever

Friends:
itz easier to find one when youre at the top,
but what happen when you dropped down,
there's no one at ur side.xcept those that really2 your friend
there are too many complicated things that happens in my life
and i feel so misearable about this..
i dedicated this to few of my "real" buddy..
thanksfor always be there for me pal, i dunno what i will do without you
thanks for being supportive and understanding
help me, to be a better person
take good care of me and i will take gud care of you

Study:
one more year to go and i cant wait to finish it up
in fact i dunt think that im in the mood for study,
god help me
just one more year to go...give me guts to face with every challenges at the the future
wish me luck

...perlis...

9 jun 2009
dah lamer rasanyer ak tak naek bus..cuak gak..mcm mle2 dulu..hehe...lagi2 aku naek bus 2 tingkat g kangar..(kan hari tu baru msk berita yang bas ke kangar 2 tgkat eksiden)..dah r pakcik bas tu gler...laju gler..pttnye smpi lam kul 6 ataw 7..tapi hari tu smpi pukul 5 pagi..aku nek ngan ein, mimi and fifi..pagi tu member perlis aku amek sbb bf si ein bz..ktorang lepak kat semarak (KKE)10 jun 2009..farah..shamimi and rad dah de sehari lagi al kat sini..g dating kot..besa lar tu..

pagi tu aku g wat rambut jap kat kedai abg lan..konon nk wat rambut ala2 rihanna tapi abg lan tak bagi sebab kata muka aku bulat..t mkin kembang..hahaha..so potong besa jer.mlm tu g mkn dengan member2..waaaa..sonok..dah lmer tak rasa suasana ni...

kenyang gler....tp smer still cuak asal presentation..logbook aku dah r tak lengkap lae..hisshh..tp mata aku ngantuk sgt..tdo sat lar..adoyaiii...hubby aku ni..nak tak nk je layan..tension r..siap kacau awek laen plak tyme aku takde..xper2..biorje r..mls nk campr adukk.

10 jun 2009

final day of this sem..hurm..akhirnya aku betul2 boleh menarik nafas lega dengan semua yang berlaku untuk sem ni.my presentation..eventhough sucks..yet still relief me..rasa mcm dah lepas beban yang besar...pe yang aku buat sem ni memang tak related langsung dgn course aku..aku rindukan dengan kertas lukisan aku..melukis..jmpe owang..wat survey market..software2..n hasilkan produk..entah kenapa aku rindu semua tu...dulu sem 3 tak ske pon..menyampah lagi adalah..hahaha)..nway..tadi ponaku kena daftar subjek..well, untuk thn akhir ni aku pilih design analysis..entah lah tak taw aku boleh bawa ataw tak..tapi lagi rela dari amek mechatronic..xnk aku blajar plc lg..dah serikkk...otak aku mmg tak boley terima kot bnda2 elektrik n elektronik ni...esok aku likkkk.tak taw aku sebenarnyer happy atau tak

wanita yang kau pilih - rossa

Malam selalu panjang
Di waktu aku merindukanmu
Kau bisa menjaga aku
Hingga diriku merasa teduh

Aku seperti kamu
Menginginkan dan memerlukanmu
Karena kita tak mampu
Selalu pergi menjauh

Kau jadikan aku ini
Wanita yang kau pilih
Untuk jadi kekasihmu
Dan kau pun tlah aku minta
Setia sepertiku

Aku percaya penuh
Kau kan buatku bahagia
Karna cinta tercipta
Datangnya dari dalam hatiku

Kau jadikan aku ini
Wanita yang kau pilih
Untuk jadi kekasihmu
Dan kau pun tlah aku minta
Setia sepertiku

listen to this songs..really remind me to you, my dearest hubby...bie..hunny taw hunny byk sshkan bie...but i didnt meant to..the way we express ourself memang totally diff..sumtymes hunny rasa hunny tak kenal b..n sumtymes huny rasa huny terlebih kenal plak..hahahah..funny kan...

pumpkin dear...i donno why ..but i need you...everyday...maybe im just acting stupid just to get ur attention..ntah..just dunt go away k...ive planned so many things in my life with you..and cant imagine my life without you...i wil try my besh for you..just ayat setia seprti aku tu..fuhhhh...gler2 kena try my besh ni..hahahhah

xoxo,
hunny bee

Controversy - iF yoU SeEK aMY

La la la, la la la la la La la la, la la la la la

(repeat twice)

Oh baby baby have you seen Amy tonight?

Is she in the bathroom is she smokin' up outside?

Oh Oh baby baby does she take a piece of lime

For the drink that I'm a buy her do you know just what she likes?

Oh Oh oh, tell me have you seen her?

cause I'm so oh I can't get her off of my brain

I just want to go to the party she gon' go Can somebody take me home?

Ha ha, he he, ha ha, ho

Love me hate me,

say what you want about me

But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me,

but can't you see what I see?

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

(love me, hate me)

La la la, la la la la la La la la, la la la la la

Amy told me that she's gonna meet me up

I don't know where or when and now they're closing up the club,

oh I've seen her once or twice before she knows my face

But it's hard to see with all the people standing in the way,

oh Oh oh, tell me have you seen her,

cause I'm so oh I can't get her off of my brain

I just want to go to the party she gon' go

Can somebody take me home?

Ha ha, he he, ha ha ho

Love me hate me,

say what you want about me

But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me,

but can't you see what I see?

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek amy

Love me hate me

Oh, say what you want about me?

Oh, but can't you see what I see?

(Love me Hate me)

Oh, say what you want about me?

La la la, la la la la la

So tell me if you see her

(let me know what she was wearin, yeah, and what she was like)

'Cause I've been waiting here forever

(let me know what she was goin out of mind)

Oh baby baby if you seek Amy tonight

Oh baby baby we'll do whatever you like

Oh baby baby baby Oh baby baby baby

La la la, la la la la la La la la, la la la la la

(repeat 2x)

Love me hate me,

say what you want about me

But all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me,

but can't you see what I see

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

Love me hate me,

say what you want about me,

(yeah)

la la la, la la la la

Love me hate me,

but can't you see what I see

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy

(Love me hate me)

Oh, say what you want about me?

Oh, but can't you see what I see?

(Love me hate me)

Oh, say what you want about me?

All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to if you seek Amy.

P/s - whatever the controversy it cause, the lyrics, the songs and the beat still rocks me..

..still love this songs..

22th May 2009 - So Yesterday

morning till night,
too much trouble....
too much mistake....
too much embrassment..
too much problem..

morning till night,
sorry to my ma..my dad..
sorry to my hubby...
sorry to my friends...
sorry to myself

morning till night,
thinking about my life,
thinking about us,
thinking about them,
thinking about eveything,

to whom i might hurt,
there's no word in the world that can picture how sorry am i
to whom that love me,
thank you for appeciate me and taking care of me
to whom that mad at me
sorry for cant satisfy whatever you wish for
to all who read this
words may be simple, but it really comes from inside ME

sonnet 18 : misearable

it's 2 in the morning when i saw our picture,
youre not around but still i can feel ya',
i remember what we've planned for the future,
it's just another reason why i love ya'.

but life was not that simple and easy,
the more we love ,the more challenging it will be,
how come people try to make me confused and dizzy,
make me believe that ure not the one for me.

i try to fight with this bizzare feeling,
wishing and hoping that there is a way out,
im suffered and honey, im not lying
i wanna shout, but i cant let it out.

please come here and save me,
from all the kiosk that will take me.

p/s - i wrote this poem to someone that i cared too much.

High School lovers

A Day Spent Wif My Hubby

today, i spent my whole evening wif my dearest hubby, it was fun and i

felt the clock ticking very fast. jealous huh?? hehehe... but the

part that i love the most about that day is, we're both wearing the

white couple t-shirt, which is very simple to me a.k.a i dunt do simple

okay..plus, with no make up..

OMG!!! we're look like high school lovers.

it really make me feel younger and natural.nway, just uploading this

picture to keep me remember how it feels like today..

dear, when will we wear the black couple t-shirt.. :).

cant wait to see you again.

muahhxxxx,
xoxo

too large

eiii.. nk post sumthing here..but the picture size is too large..buhsan r..susah tol nk gne broadband ayah ni..jammed tol..
(but still, thanks to his broadband lar, i can post this blog hehe )

P/s- sper nk tolong sponsorkn i broadband..wahahaha :)

School Supervisor visit..takotnyer

damn..
today's my supervisor visit..
ingatkan en shayfull..p cik sakinah..
entah pe yang nk digoreng, aku pon tak taw,
sebab tak besa dgn lect baru ni katakan
tapi hidup mesti terus hidup
layankan aje pe yang dier nak...

tp kesimpulannyer, my presentations sucks..
no preparation at all, kena marah ngan abg j
rasa2 my supervisor abg mi pon bengang gak..
tapi tak kesampaian nk marah..
bz dengan meeting QR
fuhhh.....nasib baek....

nway, seb baek feroz n yogesh ader..xde r aku cuak sgt..
tapi yang tak beshnye, dengan my hubby r..
ader je mnde yang wat aku rasa laen macam..
ske mmg ske..syg mmg syg..
tp d feelings...mcm pelik
aahh...biarkan je r...mls nk layan
yang penting...reliefffffffff glerrrrrrrr
tggl nk fokus on big final report jer..nk kena struggle neyh.

memories

So many pictures on that day

but this one is the most priceless one

thanks pumpkin, for always be there for me..

i may not be perfect everyone, but yes..i wanna be perfect for you

i miss you each and everyday

me n my dearest hubby

nothing important

hurms..suddenly i feel alone and lonely..
i feel like there's no room for me to stay...
i wonder why i care so much about everybody else..
but ther's no one out there care about what i felt?
sometimes, i think that "life is not fair" are really true..
we may be on top, happy and forget about the karma
but once we fall, it's gonna be damn painfull

Quick....Hurry up babes!!

hehe..last day preparation ceremony..mcm nk gler plak rasanyer..dat day..i went to work early in the morning and went home at midnight..perghhh, dedikasi nyer aku..a.k.a biler lagi nk puji diri sendiri maa..

hehe..me wif project manager abg jay, posing je lebey

the balloon man..alahai dak tomey ni..nk jadi model belon plak eyh?


konon-konon nk ikat , tp xsampai pon..huhu

melepak di tepi QR , banyak tak bendera kitorang. :)

alah..sjer je b tak nk tgk cam kan?

Ceremony

this two weeks...im goin to be damn tired with those preparation for 1st shipment ceremony for japan model at my workplace..
i keep skip my lunch hour bcoz of this event and FYI, i can eat a turkey by myself because im damn hungry..wahahaha
Nway, time flew by very past..i cant really remember what time i fall asleep everynight. all i can say, this job look easy but i promise you, it is really hard to plan such a event..
yet, im still thankful to our project manager for giving me change to handle it..
(althougth, some of it not follow what we've plan..im the spoiler..hahahha...sorry boss).
hope everything will be okay.

020509 - stupid cupid

Stupid Cupid

You're a real mean guy

I'd like to clip your wings

So you can't fly

I am in love and it's a crying shame

And I know that you're the one to blame

Hey hey

Set me free

Stupid Cupid

Stop picking on me

I can't do my homework

And I can't think straight I meet him every morning

At 'bout half-past eight

I'm acting like a lovesick fool

You've even got me carrying his books to school

Hey hey

Set me free

Stupid Cupid

Stop picking on me

You mixed me up for good

Right from the very start

Hey, go play Robin Hood

With somebody else's heart

You got me jumping like a crazy clown

And I don't feature what your puttin' down

Well since I kissed his loving lips of wine

The thing that bothers me is

That I like it fine

Hey hey

Set me free

Stupid Cupid

Stop picking on me

You got me jumping like a crazy clown

And I don't feature what your puttin' down

Well since I kissed his loving lips of wine

The thing that bothers me is

That I like it fine

Hey hey

Set me free

Stupid Cupid

Stop picking on me

OMG!! im one of the blogger now..

my fwens invited me to be bloggers long ago..but maybe it's just not my time..
and maybe bcause im not the type of person who likes to reveal what i feel underneath..
but somehow, i read my bro's blog..well, it is kind of fun to jot down all the memory things or stuff u do, without thinking what others might critic.. wa respect la..
anyway, it is not really my intention to bubling here..
juz to mention my history of being one of the blogger..wahhahaha

p/s- thanks bro, for giving me spirit n kerajinan to do this..wish me luck